Nunca me has querido, nunca te has imaginado tu vida conmigo, nunca has deseado acostarte cada noche y levantarte cada mañana a mi lado, nunca has buscado hacerme feliz, nunca te has preocupado por mí... ya era suficientemente complicado inventar excusas y razones para justificar tu papel, el guión que escribiste tú y que yo creí a ciegas.
Me ha costado darme cuenta, sólo hacía falta que pasaran los días y no buscaras ni tuvieras la necesidad de decirme nada más, pero nunca es tarde, y quizá esta conclusión me ayude a odiarte y olvidarme de tí pronto y para siempre, algo que tendría que haber hecho hace mucho tiempo y mis malditas esperanzas me lo impedían, y las tuyas, por encima de todas las cosas.
Nunca quise pensar que pudiera existir una persona en el mundo que aún sabiendo que no iba a poder ser para mí, me tuviera atada, encerrada y escondida, porque si no era con él, no podría ser con nadie más, pero existe. La persona más cruel del mundo es aquella que antepone el placer y la satisfacción propia a lo ajeno.
Me has impedido tener una vida totalmente diferente a la que me has dejado, me has sometido a tus palabras y a tus caricias, a tu voluntad. Me has convertido en la peor versión de mí misma, me has apagado como una cerilla, de un soplido, como un cigarrillo, pisoteada contra el suelo. Me has robado la vida con tus palabras y también con tu silencio.
He perdido la confianza en mí y en el resto del mundo gracias a tí, me quiero morir gracias a tí.
Gracias por vendarme los ojos, para que no pudiera ver ni pudiera verme nadie, gracias por cerrar puertas y ventanas, gracias por atarme a tu cama, a tu vida, a tí, para que no pudiera salir a buscar nada más, gracias por taparme la boca para que no hablara. Gracias por todo ese esfuerzo, por hacer que tu personaje fuera creíble, te doy mi enhorabuena y mi aplauso, tu premio te lo dará la vida en algún momento, ten tu discurso preparado.
You cheated on me from the first moment and I believed you when you told me that everything we lived after was true ... and it was true, for you, that you believed your own lies and tried to convince me. Everything has been a big lie, a movie in which you were the main actor and I was just the secondary actress.
You have never loved me, you have never imagined your life with me, you have never wanted to go to the bed every night and wake up every morning by my side, you have never sought to make me happy, you have never worried about me ... it was complicated enough to invent excuses and reasons to justify your role, the script that you wrote and that I believed blindly.
I had a hard time realizing, it only took that the days passed and you didn't look for and you didn't need to tell me anything else, but it's never too late, and maybe this conclusion will help me to hate you and forget you soon and forever, something that I would have a long time ago and my damn hopes prevented me, and yours, above all things.
I never wanted to think that there could be a person in the world that even knowing that he couldn't be for me, had me tied up, locked up and hidden, because if it was not with him, it could not be with anyone else, but he exists. The cruelest person in the world is the one who puts pleasure and self-satisfaction before others.
You have prevented me from having a life totally different from the one you have left me, you have subjected me to your words and your caresses, to your will. You have turned me into the worst version of myself, you have extinguished me like a match, of a blow, like a cigarette, trampled on the ground. You have stolen my life with your words and also with your silence.
I have lost confidence in myself and in the rest of the world thanks to you, I want to die thanks to you too.
Thank you for bandaging my eyes, so that I couldn't see and nobody could see me, thanks for closing doors and windows, thanks for tying me to your bed, to your life, to you, so that I couldn't go out and look for anything else, thanks for covering me up the mouth so I wouldn't speak. Thank you for all that effort, for making your character credible, I give you my congratulations and my applause, your prize will be given to you at some time, have your speech prepared.
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